Tic-Toc

As the days get closer, people keep asking me if I'm nervous. I just shrug my shoulders "EH"

If they only knew all the thoughts that are racing thru my mind...all of that "what ifs"...

It's funny tho...times like this is when people look for a higher being...
Whether it be Allah, Yahweh, Christ, or Brahman.

Not me tho...or at least the majority of the time not me...
Maybe I have been brainwashed by science and medicine. We were taught in school that the lives of our patients were in OUR hands...not by some unknown "force."
But then you witness events, such as the miracle of life...makes you wonder, doesn't it?

The only thoughts that I'm left with...
     Do I leave my life in the hands of strangers? Or in the hands of a God?