Hypocrite

I have been a patient many of times, but this will go down as the most nerve-wracking experience. I sit here alone (not by choice) with millions of thoughts racing thru my mind...

So many questions...I hope they have the answers to them all....

Yet the one thought that bothers me the most?

Would it be hypocritical of me to
leave my fate in the hands of God?
When weeks before...God was never
on my mind??