Distrustfulness

Torment...

That is what I go thru with all of my mixed emotions.
Yet why? Over something so pathetic as trust?

No...it is not pathetic.

It was ruined, thrown away, taken advantage of...
So how am I supposed to now fix it?  Such an impossible task...or so it seems...

Am I the wrong one for not trusting?  Yet they lie to my face over ridiculous things?
All that proves is that they do not deserve me or my trust...
I have so much to offer and I am tormented by this.

I have done nothing to deserve treatment such as this...or have I??

Is this life's way of reminding me of all my errors?

No...it cannot be that way...life is a lessoned to be learned...
Not some punishment for wrong deeds done.

Life is to be celebrated and enjoyed...
Not to live in torment this way...